After scientifically trying for 3 months - temperatures, OPKs, the works: a positive is encouraging. On the other hand, nobody wants to lose something they've been trying for and human beans are notoriously finicky. Today at 12 DPO I've still got a 30% chance of this chia seed failing to germinate. Those are uncomfortably high odds to me. Yes, I know it's not like each morning the embryo rolls a dice and decides based on that if it's going to stay, but still. It's a bit sad knowing from the onset it's so hard to sustain a pregnancy. You'd never know it, of course, because women generally don't know they're having a chemical pregnancy and even fewer women want to announce a miscarriage.
For now, the anti-symptom spotting is the worst. "What if my boobs are sore but less sore than yesterday???!" "OMG, I'm cramping! Oh, no, wait, that was just a fart." (Still undecided if it's a good thing or a bad thing to cramp, but I've been having twinges over the past few days.)
Honestly though, even if this doesn't pan out, the silver lining is that I now know I'm at least capable of getting pregnant.
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